this question just slam me down right flat on my face.
i wrote; to see the lost coming back to Him.
like duh, like some tys answers.
it smack me so hard because truth to be told, i never thought about God’s dream. i always thought about my dreams, what i wanna do, how to survive Nursing etc etc. but this question is like God calling me, “hello Vivien, look here. you’ve got your dream, i’ve got mine too.” and i felt like so undeserved at the moment. i felt like i’m the spoiled kid. i hate spoiled kids and i’m behaving like one… i felt that i really don’t deserved all these blessings that God graciously gave and i felt that i’m a trash because i ignored His feelings and burdens ):
so much for Him empowering me during camp… sigh. and what the hell am i doing…
i repented and i, i just recommit myself to God once again. His will above mine, His dreams above mine. whatever i have is whatever tools i have to achieve His dreams. i said i wanna follow God and now’s the deal. to have courage to follow Him and His dreams, though i know i have to forsake mine. no loss right? it’s eternity that i’m giving my best to :)
so God, give me faith, courage and Your anointing. and let’s do this together. if there’s ever a time i tried to do some stunts, may You ask me this question again, “Vivien, what do you think is God’s dream?”
